I will not. I cannot. How can I describe 2015 in one word when 2015 is a one luscious hellish journey? Comparing my 2015 in a roller coaster ride is an understatement. No, please, I am not overreacting here. I still clearly remember my post last December 31, 2014...
You can see here how excited I am for 2015, but never in my wildest dream that this year will set the standard of my wheel of fate high. This year, I've been through the bests and my worsts. I've been through the uppermost and my lowest point in my life. This year, the wheel of my life had really got me rollin'. Twelve months. Just twelve months yet it feels like forever to me. As they said nga, ang daming ganap.
2015's Bests:
♥ Our thesis was accepted finally. Yes, finally. Imagine lost souls entering a loophole; they keep on roaming and roaming searching for light without knowing that their pathway are just repeating all over again. This explains our thesis, me and my thesis partner in analogous to lost souls, our thesis defense in analogous to loophole, and approval in analogous to the light. Our journey was never ending. I can’t identify no more if we’re defending our thesis or ourselves. But after all these significant shits (what a contrary), we still made it.
♥ April 2015
I graduated BS Biology in Polytechnic University of the Philippines. I graduated without flying colors but every time I remember how happy my parents were back then, it feels like I did graduated with all the vivid colors flying all around, shining down on me. It was never an easy journey, but having my parents as my vehicle, indeed, it was the best journey of all.
I graduated BS Biology in Polytechnic University of the Philippines. I graduated without flying colors but every time I remember how happy my parents were back then, it feels like I did graduated with all the vivid colors flying all around, shining down on me. It was never an easy journey, but having my parents as my vehicle, indeed, it was the best journey of all.
Behind my journey as a Biology student are my friends who never let me fall for they are always on my back (don’t take this literally ‘coz I knew that when I fall, instead of helping me, they will just laugh). If soulmates are entitled not only for romantic love then they are my soulmates. Actually ni-literal naming ang “walang iwanan”; all of us are suma—sumasampung taon sa College XD
♥ April 2015
Second to September 17, 2012 (debut), April 13, 2015 is the date that I will forever treasure in my heart. In just one day I felt the happiness that I've been longing for. I graduated last April 13, 2015. When I came home, I was welcomed by the news that my first ever story was already released. It was published by Summit Media with their imprint Pop Fiction. Imagine my happiness back then. Imagine how my smile formed from ear to ear to the point that my heart can't handle it anymore. Imagine how massive my happiness is to the point that the only way I can show my happiness is through tears. I've waited five years to graduate, I've waited almost two years to get my book to be published; and these two are worth the wait. If time is nothing (accdg to The Time Traveler's Wife), then so as waiting.
Second to September 17, 2012 (debut), April 13, 2015 is the date that I will forever treasure in my heart. In just one day I felt the happiness that I've been longing for. I graduated last April 13, 2015. When I came home, I was welcomed by the news that my first ever story was already released. It was published by Summit Media with their imprint Pop Fiction. Imagine my happiness back then. Imagine how my smile formed from ear to ear to the point that my heart can't handle it anymore. Imagine how massive my happiness is to the point that the only way I can show my happiness is through tears. I've waited five years to graduate, I've waited almost two years to get my book to be published; and these two are worth the wait. If time is nothing (accdg to The Time Traveler's Wife), then so as waiting.
♥ Summer—one word, thousand meanings. Parang love lang eh no? Anyway, whenever summer is fast approaching, I got this all over kilig feelings. Dmaing ganap kapag summer, teh. There goes the statuses and tweets saying “OTW to *insert place here*, “Touch down *insert place here*”. Who will forget about the IG posts which include sceneries with overlaying filters? Another thing that makes my summer complete are meet-ups. I will never forget every meet-up I attended this year because finally I am now recognizable LOL. Every meet-up I attended for the previous years, only two to three people recognizes me and for this year, it was different—a lot different. I remember one booksigning I attended, kulang na lang humampas ang mukha ko sa sahig, not because they are fangirling over me (this is awkward; I hate topics like this, I look like a braggart to everyone and myself when all I intended was to explain LOL), but because they want to get rid of me ‘coz I’m blocking their way to their idols hahaha. Now, if you’re grieving over rejected thesis, crying over failing grades, weeping over turned down proposal, getting frustrated for not being recognized, then maybe it’s not your time yet. Wink wink!
♥ Do you have an idol? Someone you really look up to? I have many. Then what if this idol of yours will have a chance to finally meet you? Oh, wait. Baliktad. I mean, what if you finally get the chance to meet him/her/them? What would you do? Then watch the concert. Wink wink!
♥ So what’s the main highlight of my 2015? Actually it should be my book being published, right? Or my graduation. But, no. If I waited two years for my book and waited five years for me to end College, then sorry but I waited long enough for me to enter Medical school. At the age of five, I imagined myself as a doctor delivering my patient’s baby, and as years go up to the present, I still imagine things like this. For this year, I am now on my first step on making my imagination real.
♥ Of course, with new journey and memories there are new friends, and I am looking forward to what will happen in the near future. Either they go or stay LOL. #Hugot
♥ Oh, wait! New hairstyle <3 Goodbye long and curly hair, hello straight short hair ^^
2015's Worsts:
Writing about my worsts is difficult, maybe you too, maybe all of us. Naisip ko rin, maybe some of you guys who are reading my blog might think why do I even consider the worsts when I have all the bests for my year? Well, my answer might be also same with your relationship status, it's complicated. When you got every first-rated events in your life as well as dreadful events, which among the two will stand out? Of course the dreadful events. Pain creates deeper mark in your heat than happiness can do. I can read your thoughts now, how can I prove it? See, we all cry with the same reason over and over again: because e fails, because we broke up with a lover or a friend, our father/mother left us, a relative die, etc. Kahit gaano na katagal ng lumipas, thought of it still lingers in our mind that will bring anguish in our heart and tears in our eyes. The pain will be always there, it already occupied place in your memory. On the other hand, we never laugh on the same joke, we'll get used to that joke for just matter of minutes. See my point here? That's why to sum up all the best events in my life for this year, all of them are still overpowered by the worsts. Stupid worsts, always ruining everything.
Remember my first and second best moment of 2015? We accomplished our thesis and we finally graduated. Well, guess what kung anong kapalit niyon? I lost a friend. Not just a friend I should say, a one great, trustworthy, finest friend a person could ever have. We're like sisters (well, for me), we've been through the best and worst of College life, We were the shoulder-to-cry-on of one another and yet, we ended up facing different side, her shoulder touches mine, and went on different ways. Until now I'm asking myself, whatever happened to us?
Remember when I said that one of the best things about summer is meet-up? Well yes it is, not until I enter Medical school. Since then, hindi na ko nakakapunta sa meet-up. Don;t get me wrong, this is not because I don't have the "extra free" time, not because my schedule is totally messed up, but because I was already prohibited. Sad life. No more actual communication with my readers, no more cute talks with my co-author, no more. No more...
Remember when my first book was finally published? Happy, right? What do you expect after releasing of your first book? Booksigning. I was about to get the chance of having my first official booksigning last September (MIBF) but guess what? My schedule has now messed up with me. Med school can be so much demanding. And also due to Med school, the stories I've written goes meh.
Now I'm blaming Med School. Well, not actually blaming. I knew event like this will happen once I enter Med School. I knew that I will lost the chance of joining Saturday gala, reunions, roadtrips, travels, etc. My usual eight hours of sleep will then become a miracle because in this life I choose to enter, three hours of sleep is already a luxury. Maybe I should post a screenshot of everything I want to say about Med School on another tab. I'll keep you updated, guise. Med school is hell. But this is what I want, this is where my heart belongs to, I'm so in love with Medicine to the point that this hell I am talking about became my one sweet heaven. Med School is worst, it's a nightmare. On the contrary, it is also a sanctuary.
In Med school, I had new friends. 9Seriously, sagrado ang tingin ko sa salitang "friends", parang for me it takes a lot of experiences bago masabi mong kaibigan mo ang isang tao). Oh well anyway, last November, we scheduled our trip to EK. I was the one who invited them, pleading them because I really wanted to go to EK since I was in first year HS. I invited several more; I scheduled the date and everything. I'm the most excited among us, until four days before the most awaited moment, hindi na ako makakasama. Why? #StrictParentsProblems If you think that this is too shallow to be considered as worst, then you must left this page 'coz you really don't understand a thing.
Remember my first and second best moment of 2015? We accomplished our thesis and we finally graduated. Well, guess what kung anong kapalit niyon? I lost a friend. Not just a friend I should say, a one great, trustworthy, finest friend a person could ever have. We're like sisters (well, for me), we've been through the best and worst of College life, We were the shoulder-to-cry-on of one another and yet, we ended up facing different side, her shoulder touches mine, and went on different ways. Until now I'm asking myself, whatever happened to us?
Remember when I said that one of the best things about summer is meet-up? Well yes it is, not until I enter Medical school. Since then, hindi na ko nakakapunta sa meet-up. Don;t get me wrong, this is not because I don't have the "extra free" time, not because my schedule is totally messed up, but because I was already prohibited. Sad life. No more actual communication with my readers, no more cute talks with my co-author, no more. No more...
Remember when my first book was finally published? Happy, right? What do you expect after releasing of your first book? Booksigning. I was about to get the chance of having my first official booksigning last September (MIBF) but guess what? My schedule has now messed up with me. Med school can be so much demanding. And also due to Med school, the stories I've written goes meh.
Now I'm blaming Med School. Well, not actually blaming. I knew event like this will happen once I enter Med School. I knew that I will lost the chance of joining Saturday gala, reunions, roadtrips, travels, etc. My usual eight hours of sleep will then become a miracle because in this life I choose to enter, three hours of sleep is already a luxury. Maybe I should post a screenshot of everything I want to say about Med School on another tab. I'll keep you updated, guise. Med school is hell. But this is what I want, this is where my heart belongs to, I'm so in love with Medicine to the point that this hell I am talking about became my one sweet heaven. Med School is worst, it's a nightmare. On the contrary, it is also a sanctuary.
In Med school, I had new friends. 9Seriously, sagrado ang tingin ko sa salitang "friends", parang for me it takes a lot of experiences bago masabi mong kaibigan mo ang isang tao). Oh well anyway, last November, we scheduled our trip to EK. I was the one who invited them, pleading them because I really wanted to go to EK since I was in first year HS. I invited several more; I scheduled the date and everything. I'm the most excited among us, until four days before the most awaited moment, hindi na ako makakasama. Why? #StrictParentsProblems If you think that this is too shallow to be considered as worst, then you must left this page 'coz you really don't understand a thing.
How to End This Blog?
The End.